How long do you grieve your old life? I've been diagnosed for 7 years and I am still going through the grieving process. :( This cannot be normal. I have always been such an active person, as a teenager I loved to be in the sun, water, outside, skating, riding my bicycle, walking through the woods, anything but being inside doing nothing. As a young mother, I worked a full-time job, took care of my kids, took them to their doctor's and dentist appointments, took them to their extracurricular activities, did the grocery shopping, did all of the cleaning and chores around the house, I hardly ever sat still and now that's all I seem to do. I see what all of my friends are doing and I wish my life was different. My kids are older and almost out of the house, what am I going to do when it's just me and my husband? This should be the prime of our lives, we should be able to travel, etc but I just don't know if that will happen. All I can do is pray this disease gets under control or goes into remission and I get some of my life back. I am tired of watching it pass me by, there are so many things I could be doing, so many things I have missed out on, therefore my kids missed out on. But I know there are things we have done that we have learned to appreciate a little more. We have all learned not to take things for granted and to appreciate the little things in life. We have spent more time as a family and Hope and I have spent a lot of time in the car to and from TKD. That has been our thing, sometimes afterward we go out for a treat, those are memories I hope stick with her for life.
We must make the most of the life that has been given to us, things could always be worse, I need to remember that more often.
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